Wednesday, August 11, 2004

Struggling. . .

I'm struggling this week. I was up a pound at Jenny Craig on Monday after a week of eating a lot. I did Indian last Thursday, I did more cosmopolitans on Friday (along with a little cake), I did birthday cake on Saturday. I did store-bought white cheddar cheese popcorn for three days last week. I did cashew nuts a lot last week. I never felt like I binged, but I'm sure it all added up.

So now I'm been better on the food. I had ice cream after my weigh-in, and I ate some nuts yesterday with lunch. I have, however, been eating more carrots to stave off the starvation that was driving me toward the nuts. But tonight I still want to eat. I've eaten crackers. I've had an extra Jenny Craig dessert with whipped cream. And yet I'm still wanting to eat. I think my excesses last week have whetted my appetite.

I better go ride the bike now . . .

Monday, August 02, 2004

I have returned!

Wow! I didn't know it had been so long since I last wrote. It's been so long I think Blogger.com has changed the posting interface -- could I always change the date and time below the post? I don't remember being able to.

Well, I don't think that anyone but me has been reading my blog, but in case someone has and was wondering where I've been, my answer . . . nowhere really. I'm not sure why I stopped writing for so long. Did I go off the diet? No. I'm still going to Jenny Craig and eating the tasty food they sell, and I've continued to lose weight. I FINALLY got past the twenty-pound mark on the JC scale, but I did take longer to get there than I wanted. I hovered around that mark for about three weeks. Maybe that's why I didn't write.

I've lost a little more since then, but I'm still bouncing up and down the scale a bit. I did finally feel some of the boredom with the food. I have eaten out more freely. I probably have drunk more freely, too. (I went to two wine tasting parties in one weekend a couple of weeks ago!) Part of that is summertime socializing, but I think some of it is also boredom with the diet.

I also think my struggle to stay strictly to the meal plan is due in part to a "resting on my laurels" mentality, bolstered by the compliments I've been getting lately from friends, my co-workers, my family, even my JC counselor herself -- she's been gone on a European trip the past month, during which time I really did drop quite a few pounds. So she had the benefit of seeing me after not having seen me in a while.

As for exercise, I have good weeks and bad weeks. I got a smaller-sized DVD player for my bedroom TV, which is where my exercise bike is, and so now I have a choice between watching what's on TV right then or DVDs. I've been watching a lot of Sex and the City, both on TBS and on DVD (I've been comparing the episode edits), but that may have pushed to drinking a couple of cosmopolitans when I shouldn't have. ;-) Last week, for whatever reason, I didn't do much exercise. Exercise just is and always will be a challenge for me.

Well, I better go now. Here are my updated figures:

Weight Loss/Gain at JC for the Week (8/2/04) : -0.9 pounds
Total Loss at JC (since 3/22/04): -22.4 pounds
Total Loss on Bathroom Scale (since 3/8/04): -25.4 pounds