Discouraged, but slowly getting over it

I had a weigh-in at JC today and was up one pound. I did not expect that -- I had hoped to be down a half-pound because that would be consistent with my bathroom scale. I did, however, get a bit of good news -- I have lost a half-inch each in my bust, waist, hips and thighs. Still, the pound jump upset me. It could have been that I drank a lot of water right before I weighed this evening, but I also realize that I have been eating a lot of mixed nuts at work -- probably too many. And I had alcohol over the weekend, but I'm not sure that would have impacted me that much.

While I'm trying to take this as yet another wake-up call, I was rather discouraged when I left the JC center. I also did not want to discuss it with my mother, because I knew if I talked to her she would give a "pep talk" that would turn more into "do you know what you are doing?", which I hear as "do you know what you are doing wrong?" Given that I had already discussed what I might be doing right or wrong with my JC counselor, I did not want to rehash it. This is why I've been reluctant in weeks past to even report to her on my success, because I knew I'd only raise expectations.

So I still haven't talked to my mother, though my dad called me and I told him to "break the news" of my gain to Mom. Dad didn't quite get my "break the news" joke. He must have talked to Mom, because I haven't heard from her. Contrary to the impression the above rant may have left, I think she's giving me space.

After the past few hours, I feel better. I did one "right" thing and one "wrong" thing. My wrong thing was eating some Ben & Jerry's Oatmeal Chocolate Chunk. I had been wanting that all day, though I had no idea I'd gain at Jenny Craig. I guess the only consolation is that in the past I would have binged on some kind of cracker snack food and maybe even another pint of ice cream.

The "right" thing I did, however, (besides resisting the urge to jump back in my car and get more junk food) is ride my exercise bike for 30 min. I know that doesn't counter the ice cream, but it doesn't hurt. And, of course, it probably made me feel better tonight than eating the ice cream did. But, for once, the ice cream actually did satisfy my craving.

Weekly update -- Up one pound
Total weight loss at JC: -12.6