A little better today

I was down a little bit today, to 198.4 on the bathroom scale. But I did not eat well this evening. Hunger and then a little bit of wine got the best of me. (I hit the McDonald's drive-thru and a bag of pita chips, respectively. The pita chips, though, are fabulous. The McDonald's -- not so much.)

Today's weight/net loss or gain: 198.4 / -0.4 lbs.

Real numbers (sigh)

When I wrote last night I was wondering whether to give you my all-time high or just what I weighed this morning. Turns out, those numbers are one and the same. (Yikes!) :

Today's weight & high (on bathroom scale): 198.8 lbs.

Ugh. My high on Jenny Craig scales is 198.1 as of July 16 2005. I may have been over 200 a couple of years ago fully clothed at the doctor's office or at a short-lived return to Weight Watchers, but I'm not sure. So let's go with 198.8. Ick.

(Quick recap of recent weight loss battle: I started JC in March 2004 at 193.5. I lost about 23 pounds over the next six months, then put it all back on. I still go to JC and weigh-in and buy some of the food, but I haven't really followed the plan. So don't use my last few months as a example of the effectiveness of the Jenny Craig plan. You really can lose weight on it. I'm just trying to get motivated again.)

I did not get off to an auspicious start "doing something" about this weight today. I ate a JC on-the-go breakfast, but ate a lot of Chex Mix at work (we had some in a ziploc container), at first to settle my stomach (which was upset from the junk food I ate this past weekend), but then just for the salt. A security officer in the building gave us all a Snickers bar for reasons I don't know, and that tasted good. Then I got a Twister and wedges from KFC on the way home. Then Cheese Bites (think cut-up cheese straws).

Wow, they're right -- it does help to keep track of this stuff in writing. And I didn't mention the wine and beer I had with a friend this evening. Good grief.

Okay, I'm tired -- let's see how I do tomorrow. Oh, and my stomach feels acidic again.

I have got to do something . . .

Simply put, I did not feel good today. I felt out of shape. More out of shape, if there is such a thing, than I have felt in a long time. I went to an outdoor family reunion. It was quite hot outside, not as hot as it was earlier in the week, but hot and humid enough to drag me down. I had little energy. I wasn't "tired," per se, but I just didn't want to move much. I did move, and it does not cause me any pain to move, but moving just seemed to take more effort than I'm used to exerting. Ditto for standing. I did not want to stand, though it did not hurt to do so.

I did not like how I felt. I'm sure the heat has something to do with it. Maybe I was a little dehydrated. But I suspect my high weight does, too. I've got to do something.

That obviously involves exercise and diet. But I'm just going to have to be honest about everything, too. When I've posted to this previously, I have never revealed what my weight actually is -- I've only stated what my net loss was. Maybe it's better if I just shock everyone with the real numbers.

I was too scared to weigh this morning. But tomorrow I'll post the real numbers.